Emancipation Declaration

Free at last! Free at last! 
Welp folks it's happened. As of yesterday the era of "Nanny Jessica" has come to an end. Last Friday my nanny dad came home and told me to stick around for a sec. He then told me that he had gotten laid off that day. As he was telling me this I was kind of in shock but a good kind of shock. I have been wanting out of this job for quite a while. But trying to look for a job while you're working a full-time job is kind of tricky so it just wasn't happening.
When I got this job is was the perfect job and I know I was blessed with it. Everyday I was grateful for it even though it wasn't ideal. It meant being able to get married and it meant a consistent income for Cody and me. We knew this change was going to happen sometime soon it was just a little bit sooner than we both had expected. Yes it would've been nice to be able to make it through the holiday season but neither of us are freaking out. I really needed this change. Spending most of your time being miserable and the rest of it dreading going back to that miserable situation just wasn't doing a whole lot for my zest for life.

Changes sometimes suck but this is a change I welcome with all of my heart. Now it's just waiting to see what else is out there for me.

Even though I knew Friday that I wouldn't have job they still wanted me to finish out the month. Parts of it were bittersweet. Anytime the girls would do something cute there would be a little tug at my heart strings but most of it I was glad to be doing some things for the last time. I have learned a lot during this job. Mainly taking a look at how I handle stressful situations but mostly how I want to do things as a mom. A lot of my frustration in this job was wanting to do SO MUCH MORE but being so limited and so powerless. I will take what I learned from being a nanny and hopefully I can apply it to be the mom I want to be someday.

Gabby, Dylan and Abby (and Spicy the cat)